i wish i was ugly

i wish that i was ugly
buzzin like a chain smoker
messin round the down under
throw away the beard trimmer
i never want to yawn
or try a slice of typical
avoiding the unusual
just talkin on the cellular
i wish that i could lose
whatever sense i thought i had
pukin up the comfort trash
push my eyes til all goes black
i wish that i would die
to all the world's calamity
money, success: insanity
i'm pretty sure there's more in me